Scripture – Dispassionate Abandonment

by Mark Mallett

 

My son, when you come to serve the LORD… prepare yourself for trials… undisturbed in time of adversity. Wait on God, with patience, cling to him, forsake him not; thus will you be wise in all your ways. Accept whatever befalls you, when sorrowful, be steadfast, and in crushing misfortune be patient; for in fire gold and silver are tested, and worthy people in the crucible of humiliation. Trust God and God will help you; trust in him, and he will direct your way… (Today’s First Mass Reading; cf. Sirach 2:1-11)

This passage from Sirach is one of my favorites. It doesn’t attempt to sanitize the cost of what it entails to be a faithful child of God, to be a disciple of Jesus: “Prepare yourself for trials”. What kind of trials? Humiliation, crushing misfortune, temptations, testing of one’s patience to the max, and having to cling to God and wait on Him when you really want deliverance now. 

While not denying that the trials can be hard, cruel, and heartbreaking, Sirach nonetheless shows the correct path forward: a dispassionate abandonment to the Will of God. It is trusting that, even though our trials seem wholly unfair, God permits them for a greater purpose, not the least our personal purification.

Indeed, the Cross of Jesus does not signify the end of suffering but shows us precisely how to endure it: through dispassionate abandonment to the Father:

Jesus cried out in a loud voice, “Father, into your hands I commend my spirit” (Luke 23:46)

Our Lord’s cry was not one of anger towards the Father, fretting, frustration, self-pity, or anger but the verbalization of an interior disposition of total abandonment. Perhaps you and I could express it this way: “Father, in the midst of the pain of this trial, I accept that your Will is a better path than mine. Therefore, I put this present situation, my helplessness to change it, and all my unanswered questions into your hands. Fiat.

I love how St. Elizabeth of the Trinity frames it:

Such is the attitude of this soul; she walks the way of Calvary at the right of her crucified [and] humiliated King, yet always so strong, so calm… The Lamb can lead her to the fountain of life where He wills, as He wills, for she does not look at the paths on which she is walking; she simply gazes at the Shepherd who is leading her. —from I Have Found God: Complete Works, Vol. 1; 

Even if my first reaction is raw emotion, I then choose to raise my eyes from the trial, difficulty, or misfortune and fix them on Jesus “the leader and perfecter of faith” (Heb 12:2). It doesn’t mean to deny or pretend that He isn’t leading me on strange and difficult paths… up steep hills that test my inner strength, past frightening cliffs, and even valleys darkened by the shadow of death. I just say as best I can, “Okay, you are the Shepherd… I’ll go here too.”

But what about our passions and natural feelings and aversions to suffering? To be dispassionate does not mean to not feel but to not be overcome by those feelings. Let’s be totally honest: that is really, really hard at times. But when has throwing a fit, collapsing into self-pity, or blaming others ever made the situation better? Also remember that temptation is not a sin, no matter how strong you feel it. It’s only giving in to those feelings that causes us to lose our way.

Rather, Sirach tells us that waiting on God and clinging to Him (that is, following the Good Shepherd with abandon) is the only way forward that gives us wisdom. And wisdom teaches us what human rationalization alone cannot: that apparent contradictions and suffering have a divine purpose and eternal value.

Hence, says the Psalmist today:

Trust in the LORD and do good, that you may dwell in the land and be fed in security… The salvation of the just is from the LORD; He is their refuge in time of distress. And the LORD helps them and delivers them… (Psalm 37)

The “security” God grants is not insulation from suffering, but the grace to endure and be transformed by it. The refuge He offers is not the absence of storms but being Himself the “ark” that carries me through them. The deliverance God grants is liberation, not from adversity, but from myself — my sinfulness and devices.

Thus, declares the Gospel Acclamation, “May I never boast except in the Cross of our Lord Jesus Christ.”[1]Gal 6:14 Yes, may I never reject my trials but dispassionately and totally abandon myself to them… or rather, to the Father who permits them, always for my good.[2]cf. Rom 8:28

 

 

— Mark Mallett is the author of The Final Confrontation and The Now Word.

Footnotes

Footnotes

1 Gal 6:14
2 cf. Rom 8:28
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